Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- yearof2006 it always feel rather melancholic to type an entry from here. I realised I haven't blog for a long time, not after common test. And I realised how I haven't really faced it after all. I can't cope. Common test was a flop, and it left a scar. Some how I just got more fragile and vulnerable each year, and the more I try, the more failures I face. What's going to happen next year? Till now I still don't have the courage to pick up my books to give it another try. I don't dare. And again, and again I wonder, why can't I do it just like others. When I was blogging the other time, I confessed my problem. And I guess there's not a need to repeat it again. Basically I just can't grasp the concepts of things. Well, not anymore. There's so many things bothering me, I don't quite know where to start getting troubled by them. It's coming to the end of another year. Another odd year, a not so great year. I don't ask for changes, I just ask want to leave my own world of self-denial. Actually, I'm scared. I really don't know. One moment I was so sure, and the other I'm all lost. Is it really better to let go? I'm trying so hard, so hard to grap all my precious things, I'm losing my balance. I can't see the front. 2006. It's just going to fly past my mind. 11:27 p.m. - 2006-11-26 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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